ex_halfthetro706 | [ RL: Devit; Shito | Backdated to late November/early December idk orz]

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[ RL: Devit; Shito | Backdated to late November/early December idk orz]

Devit was nervous. It was clear in the quick glances he aimed at Shito, his stiff step, and the way he clutched the strap of the black messenger bag he'd slung over his shoulder like it was a lifeline. He'd done is best to pretend like nothing was different or special about this, despite the fact that he'd even dressed nice. (Well, nice by his standards, anyway, which included black PVC pants that were slashed at the thighs and a dark, gray, zip-up vest.) He'd almost managed to convince himself before they left the dorms, in fact, but the longer they walked, the more his confidence dropped, it seemed.

What the hell did he know about dating, anyway? Nothing at all! Sure, they'd gone to the movies a few times--an option Devit would have happily gone with, if he'd had any money--but this was different, as much as he tried to pretend otherwise. This was him trying to do something nice for Shito, maybe even impress him a little with how thoughtful and creative he could be. This was him trying to be that... 'r' word.

Romantic.

Ugh, even thinking about it made him cringe and shudder. What the fuck had put such a dumb, harebrained thought into his head? Being sleep-deprived and lonely and watching black and white films at four in the morning? Ugh...

This was stupid. He was stupid and not nearly as creative without Jasdero, and Shito would surely realize it and laugh at him and--fuck it. This was going to be a fucking disaster.

Unfortunately, it was a bit too late to turn back, as they fast approached their destination. After a few more moments, Devit stopped and gestured ahead of them.

"Well... We're here!" he announced. Apparently, 'here' was a large park that featured an expanse of trees, the leaves of which had only recently changed to autumn shades of gold and red.

Devit cast a sidelong glance at Shito, waiting for his reaction.

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Shito was getting more and more nervous as they went. He hadn't been all that worried at the beginning, and it had been nice to wrap himself in silks for once, do his hair with a little more attention, and slip into soft slippers instead of the hard shoes he wore to school. He hadn't really realized how tired he had gotten of wearing the same clothes day in and day out.

But he picked up on Devit's nervousness as they walked, and started to wonder just what he was so worried about. That started him feeling more and more paranoid that the reason Devit was worried was because he was taking him somewhere that Shito wasn't going to like, and that started getting him angry.

So when they stopped at the edge of the park, he looked around suspiciously for the catch.

"What is this?"

Frowning, Devit turned to look at him, the disappointment clear on his face. "What do you mean 'what is this'? It's a park!"

Fuck fuck fuck, this really was stupid, wasn't it?

Shito looked at the park, then at Devit. "Why are you so upset about taking me to a park?" he demanded.

Devit's back straightened defensively. "Who said I'm upset? I'm not upset! Why're you upset?!"

"I'm upset because you're all weird and tense and upset!" Shito snapped, his eyes narrowed.

He looked away, gritting his teeth, then stepped close and grabbed Devit's hand. "Let's start over," he said, trying to calm down.

"Because you're upset!" Devit snapped back. He let Shito take his hand but stayed rooted to the ground, desperately wanting to forget this whole thing and go back home now.

Shito looked down, concentrating on breathing. "I'm not upset now," he said, raising his head and letting his eyes travel over the park. "It looks like a nice place. Did you want to go inside?"

He couldn't quite understand why they were here. Devit wouldn't bring him to a leaf-turning viewing, would he? He just didn't know what to expect.

"Well, I didn't bring you here just to stand out here and look at it!" Devit answered. Obviously, he was having a hard time with this 'starting over' thing, as he was still defensive and paranoid and kind of pissed that Shito was basically proving his assumptions right.

He didn't make a move to enter the park, opting to pout and refuse to make eye contact instead.

Shito stood where he was for a moment, holding Devit's hand and looking around. Finally he turned to face the other boy, trying to catch his eye.

"Why did you bring me here?" he asked quietly. "Really?"

Devit shrugged, keeping his eyes averted. "I dunno. I read that the leaves are nice, and I just thought we could... I dunno..." Ugh, saying it out loud was making it worse, because now he could hear how lame it was, and he cringed at himself.

"Anyway, it was just a stupid idea, we can go home now," he said quickly and turned to leave, his cheeks burning.

Shito grabbed Devit and held him back, breaking into a smile. "We really came to watch the leaves? Really? You want to do that with me?"

He just really hadn't thought Devit would be so sensitive and appreciate beauty, that he'd just scoff at the idea of doing something like that. And so having no idea what was expected of him, he'd felt off-balance and confused.

Devit paused and glanced over his shoulder with a frown. What'd Shito think they were gonna do? "Yeah...?"

Shito smiled and took a quick, furtive glance around before leaning close and pressing a kiss to Devit's lips.

"I'd like to do that with you."

Well, that was better. Of course, Devit didn't have a clue what was so special about watching leaves (there were only so many options when it came to finding stuff that was free, and that one sounded the most interesting), but hey--as long as Shito was happy, it meant Devit did good!

"Yeah?" Apprehension fading, he grinned and then walked ahead of Shito, leading him into the park. "Well good! We can stay 'til it gets dark. The trees light up or something when the sun goes down, and there are supposed to be tables in the center of the park, so I figured we could eat there..."

It really was a romantic date, and Shito was slightly stunned as he followed Devit into the park. "I just thought you'd think something like this was really dumb," he said, reaching out and taking Devit's hand as they walked through the trees. "So I just couldn't figure out what we were doing here."

Devit faltered at that. "Yeah, well, eh... You know..." He glanced sidelong at Shito. "Do you think it's dumb?"

Shito snorted faintly and squeezed Devit's hand. So he did think it was dumb, but he'd apparently figured out that Shito would like it and brought him, anyway.

He was oddly even more touched by that.

"I don't think it's dumb at all," he said.

Devit visibly relaxed and squeezed Shito's hand in return, smiling faintly. "Okay... good."

He turned his attention to the leaves and frowned in thought. The appeal was kind of lost on him, though he did have to admit they were the most colorful autumn leaves he'd ever seen, or the most colorful ones he'd ever paid attention to, at least. He tried to remember what the leaves in Edo looked like on his world but couldn't seem to picture them.

"Guess they are kinda nice..." he mused.

"In the spring, we should view the trees again," Shito said with some enthusiasm. "With all the cherry petals, they'll be even prettier. But look."

He let go of Devit's hand and stepped off the path, picking up a leaf that had turned a deep, perfect crimson before it fell, and hadn't yet gone brown or dry.

"Isn't that beautiful?"

Devit watched him, then followed to get a closer look at the leaf.

"It's nice," he agreed, and it was. For a leaf, anyway. He glanced up at Shito curiously. "You really like this stuff, huh?"

Shito let the leaf fall to join its brethren littering the sides of the path. "Something like that has to be appreciated in the moment," he said. "Because in a week that leaf will be faded and dull, and you'll never get to see its colour otherwise."

Maybe Devit wouldn't - couldn't - get it. But maybe he'd start to understand a little.

"Oh." Devit didn't get it. Well, he did in a literal sense--obviously all the leaves would be dead soon, so they'd have to look at them now--but he had a feeling Shito was doing one of those double meaning things. He just didn't know what the other meaning was.

After a moment, he grabbed the other boy's hand and began walking again. "We'll come back in spring," he said. If it was important to Shito, then they'd do it, even if he didn't get it.

Shito smiled, but it was bittersweet. Would they be able to come back in the spring? He had no memory of the last virus, but he'd seen the video that was posted. He didn't really know what it meant, but it worried him.

Still, he could enjoy this in the moment.

"So you said there was food somewhere?"

Devit didn't think about that. To him, the virus was just a virus, because there was no way in hell that could happen to Shito. He wouldn't let it.

"Mm? No, I said there were tables," he clarified, grinning. "I brought the food."

"Oh," Shito said, grinning back with pleasure. "Well, that's even better." He continued down the path, holding Devit's hand, looking around for the picnic tables. Hopefully they wouldn't be all dirty.

"Yeah," Devit agreed, allowing himself to feel a bit smug. Maybe this wasn't such a lame idea, after all!

They came to a clearing, where several picnic tables were scattered about, their surfaces covered by fallen leaves. Devit led Shito to one that was a bit out of the way, near a large maple tree. "How's this?"

Shito cocked his head, flicking maple leaves away with the sleeve of his changshan before taking a seat. "It seems perfect to me," he said. The seat wasn't damp, at least, which had been his big worry. Thankfully, it hadn't rained in a couple of days, and the leaves were dry and relatively clean.

Devit took a seat opposite him and proceeded to open his bag. "So! Anyway. I didn't know what kind of sandwiches you like, so I made a few from the stuff we had and... eh..."

He trailed off as he looked into his bag and saw a flower setting on top of the pile of sandwiches, now beginning to wilt. Shit, that part was supposed to come before all this, wasn't it?

"Hmm?" Shito asked, leaning over a little in curiosity as Devit suddenly broke off and looked with obvious distress into the bag. Was something wrong with the food?

"What's wrong?"

Devit blinked and looked up, quickly closing his bag. "Huh? Uh, nothing! Ha..."

Damn it... Should he give it to Shito or just throw it away? It was practically dying as it was, but he'd gone through the trouble of finding where the damn things grew just so he could give him one. And maybe it was the epitome of lame, but Shito seemed to like lame, and he liked these flowers, so that basically cancelled the lameness out! Right?

"Eh..."

Shito couldn't see into the bag without getting up out of his seat. He craned his neck, but couldn't figure out what was wrong from there, so he huffed and glared at Devit.

"Well? What is it?"

Suddenly, there was a wilting spider lily being shoved at Shito.

"Here," Devit said. He was cringing again, like it was almost painful to be doing this, but he was actually preparing himself for the strange look that was sure to come.

Shito's eyes did widen in surprise as a red lily was suddenly thrust towards him. He took it gently, something very painful flickering in his eyes. The flowers were his favourite, but they also reminded him of his mother, and he held it almost reverently, cradling it in his hands.

"Thank you," he said, very softly, and looked up at Devit, smiling. "Thank you. This is all...really thoughtful. I don't know what to say."

Devit watched Shito's reaction from the corner of his eye, still bracing himself even as the zombie took the flower and held it like it was the most fragile thing in the world. It wasn't until Shito thanked him that Devit was able to relax slightly and make eye contact once again.

It felt good to know he was doing something right--really damn good, in fact--and he grinned uncertainly, shrugging in response. "Eh... Say you're happy?"

"I'm happy," Shito said dutifully. He hesitated, then scooted over to the other side of the table and gave Devit a peck on the lips. That seemed proper, despite the fact that they were in public.

Devit's grin widened, and he leaned forward to return the kiss, holding it a bit longer before pulling away. "Really?"

Shito squirmed a little at the kiss, though he enjoyed it. He slipped an arm around Devit, leaning against him. "Yes, this whole thing was really...thoughtful."

It was, wasn't it? Devit practically beamed as he slipped an arm around Shito in return, pulling him close. He could be nice and thoughtful when he wanted to be!

"So you're not suspicious of me anymore? I can surprise you like this?"

Shito blinked at the question. He shifted a little closer, letting Devit pull him against him, and thought about that.

"Yes, you can," he said decisively, smiling. He hadn't thought Devit was capable of something like this, but now that he knew, he wouldn't be nearly so wary next time. "But don't use that as an excuse to play a prank on me next time," he added severely.

"A prank?" Devit asked, sounding the epitome of surprised. "Me? Come on, I'd never do anything like that!"

Shito gave him a disbelieving look. "Do you know that when you say things like that, it makes it harder for me to believe you?"

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[ RL: Devit; Shito | Backdated to late November/early December idk orz]

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